why?

And the hits keep coming....

- If my apartment complex goes into abatement on the 19th with IHA, which it likely will, we have to move by May 31st. There are more issues than just the elevator and they are serious and could be why I can't breathe in this apartment. 

-The ER Dr I saw yesterday totally gaslit me and I would have asked for more tests if I read the radiology report rather than trust him to tell me the truth so I have to talk to the office manager about this Monday because the woman who called to check on me was concerned about this.

-i can't attend the opening night of my art show because I'm too ill

-the elevator is not fully fixed and I'm afraid to get stuck in it.  

-Grand finale? My rheumatologist and ME specialist say that my labs from my ER appointment are concerning and they think I have ANOTHER autoimmune disease - specifically most likely ANCA MPO Vasculitis because I have the antibodies and now my kidneys and lungs are concerning. The disease is very invasive and horrible and I'm really fucking scared. I have to get more tests done in the next month and probably a biopsy of my kidney and or lung to confirm.  

Why am I even still fighting at this point?