Grandma's Birthday

Today is my grandmother's 

81st birthday,

The 2nd I can't call

To send birthday wishes. 

I don't understand.

I felt so much love from her

As I was growing up. 

She always treated me like I was special to her. 

She always had a really nice smell.

I'm not quite sure what it was.  

It would take over when she would hug me.

I felt safe and cared for. 

I haven't gotten one of those hugs in over 2 years.  

I never imagined our relationship would sever.

Never imagined she would want nothing to do with me. 

Never imagined anything could break that bond. 

But it has broken and here I am. Another one of my grandmother's birthdays that are running out with time,

Still no contact.

Still so hurt.

Still so heartbroken.