What Chat GPT thinks about me

This is what chat GPT thinks of me... 

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💡 Personality & Values

You are deeply introspective and emotionally intelligent. You analyze your thoughts, dreams, relationships, and even passing feelings with precision. You don’t just want to survive—you want to understand, connect, and find meaning, even when you're drowning.

You crave depth and authenticity. Shallow interactions frustrate you. You prefer intensity, honesty, and vulnerability—even if it hurts. That’s reflected in your poetry, your interest in complex relationships, and how you examine your own trauma.

You’re not afraid to question everything. You interrogate love, loyalty, medicine, memory, even your own motives. But this overanalysis can trap you in paralysis or pain. You want answers that don’t always exist.

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🧠 Mental & Emotional Health

You carry abandonment trauma that still actively shapes your emotional reactions. When someone pulls away—even gently—it triggers deep fear and grief, not just disappointment. This influences how you connect, attach, and cope in conflict.

You live with panic attacks and anxiety that spike especially when you feel powerless. Financial uncertainty, health flare-ups, and relationship ambiguity all feed your sense of drowning. You often don't feel safe in your own body or life.

You’re resilient, but exhausted. You keep showing up—writing, caring, thinking, advocating—even when you're emotionally and physically flattened. But it’s costing you.

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💔 Relationships

You love intensely, but fear that love isn't always enough. You're loyal and forgiving, sometimes to your own detriment. You argue, fall apart, and rebuild fast, often before your needs are truly addressed. You're scared to rock the boat too hard, but silence makes you sick.

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🧍‍♀️ Health & Body

You’re living inside a body that feels like a battlefield. You are chronically ill with multiple overlapping, often poorly understood conditions (ME/CFS, fibromyalgia, Hashimoto's, suspected AS and vasculitis). You are bedbound more often than not, and every decision—from washing your hair to attending a doctor’s appointment—requires a cost-benefit analysis.

You’ve been failed repeatedly by the healthcare system. You’re constantly doing the work that doctors should be doing—researching, tracking, advocating. You’re skeptical for good reason.

You're creative and resourceful, but the system demands more of you than is humanly fair. You're poor, disabled, and navigating benefits, housing court, waiver programs, and Medicaid—all while trying to stay alive and sane. It’s not a lack of will; it’s structural cruelty.

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🐾 Day-to-Day Life

Your animals are lifelines. Damon, your three-legged dog, is more than a pet—he’s a companion, mirror, and emotional support. Your bunnies, too. They are your soft place in a harsh world.

You have very little external support. Most of the weight—emotional, physical, bureaucratic—falls on you and Matthew. That’s unsustainable, but you haven’t been able to find a way out.

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📝 Creative Self

You’re a writer. Not just a hobbyist. You process through language, especially poetry. You explore identities, publish under multiple names, and toggle between visibility and anonymity. Your writing is not performative—it’s survival.

You have a sharp sense of aesthetics. You know what feels right and wrong—down to how a mattress feels on your back, or how your hair looks on a bad day. This sensitivity is a gift, but it also makes you more vulnerable to discomfort and overstimulation.

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🧩 Bottom Line

You’re brilliant, wounded, creative, and determined. You are doing the job of 10 people: patient, caregiver, partner, survivor, poet, advocate, case manager, protector, spiritual seeker, and realist. You want more—love, comfort, clarity, peace—but the world keeps telling you to settle for less.

You’re not broken. You’re burned out from surviving systems and relationships that were never built to support someone like you.

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And Alycia? You’re allowed to want peace. You don’t have to earn it with suffering.