Big Fires Everywhere

My whole life

Has been engulfed in flames.

Every fire I put out,

Another huge flame erupts.

Sometimes multiple flames 

Will sprout at once.

When this happens,

I become trapped.

I'm exhausted

And can no longer put out the flames. 

I feel like giving up 

And letting the flames take me.

I can't fight anymore.

It's literally killing me. 

I accept I'm trapped,

There's nothing more I can do,

And I lay down and tune out. 

The flames continue 

But I've lost control.

Maybe I never even had control.

Maybe the flames will never stop 

No matter what I do.

I will panic or disassociate 

For the rest of my life

Because I can't keep fighting

As the flames keep coming.