Am I Dying?

 Am I dying?

No.
I can't be.
This disease doesn't kill
Unless it gets some help.
But I feel like I'm dying.
Maybe I will be dying soon.
Soon I'll lose benefits anyway.
I'll probably end up on the street.
I'll no longer have a cozy bed
To recover in.
There's no one to take me in.
Husband and I are both disabled.
We can't go to another country.
We could barely move out of the state
And even then we have to be lucky.
Is there even a point
To this life?
To keep trying
To survive?
I don't think so anymore.
No one is
Coming to save us.
Everything is crumbling.
We will drown.
It's just a matter of time.
I hope that
If I am dying
It happens sooner than later
Before things get worse.