my phone screen cracked

Why are you not using your mobility aids, he asked 

Why am I not using them? 

I'm not sure 

Maybe because I want to be like everyone else 

I want to not need them 

I want to not be sick

I want to walk through the trees 

See all of the new spring

blossoms and leaves

I want to stand for 5 minutes without getting dizzy 

So why am I not using them? 

Maybe I'm protesting 

Maybe I'm fighting against something 

Even though I know I'll never beat it 

My phone screen is cracked

It fell from my weakend hands

I guess 

it should have been in my rollator pouch 

Then it wouldn't be cracked 

But I think my brain would 

I shouldn't need these things when I'm home 

It's bad enough I need them out 

I want my autonomy back 

I barely had a glimpse of it 

And poof

It's gone