Sick
I've been more sick
I can't stay awake longer
Than a few hours
I always feel like I have the flu
My words slur and I walk wobbly
Everything hurts
It never ends
I'm not making art as much
I can't focus on books or TV
I'm not going to
many support groups
I don't go to appointments
I literally just lay in bed
And sleep
Or pray to be healthy again
Will I ever be healthy again?
Did I ruin my future
By pushing and crashing
Over and over
When I should have been resting?
I keep questioning if I did something horrible
that I don't remember
Or in a past life to deserve this
I always tried to live
A charitable life
An altruistic life
A life where I gave all of me
To everyone
I only want peace, health, love.
Is that too much to ask for?
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