In Another World - Generational Trauma

In another world 

my grandmother had a better upbringing 

She had my uncle and mother with her high school sweetheart 

And 

when she saw things were off 

she had support and left him

In another world 

My mother never had to raise her younger siblings 

Her brother never got caught up in drugs 

And he would still be alive 

They both just got to be kids

In another world 

My mother would have grown up knowing exactly who she is

She would have gone to college and loved every moment 

She wouldn't look at the world like it's a competition 

She would know how to love

In another world 

My mother wouldn't have had a one night stand with an addict 

I wouldn't exist 

She wouldn't have married my abusive stepfather 

My sister wouldn't exist 

But.. 

In another world 

My mother wouldn't rely her happiness 

On relationships with men

She might find the love of her life 

He would be good to her 

But he wouldn't be everything 

She would have 

a career she loves and 

Great friends she cheers on

rather than gossips about 

In another world 

My mother might have had children 

But 

She would know 

How to love them

They would grow up 

Without abuse

Without questioning who they are

They would be extremely close 

There would be regular family dinners 

There wouldn't be any fighting 

Or gossip 

Everyone would help each other,

Be good to each other,

Support each other 

Love each other

In another world 

I wouldn't exist 

But that would be okay 

Because 

The generational trauma 

Also wouldn't exist 

In another world 

My mother would be happy 

Her children would be happy 

My family would be happy

Life would be beautiful