Invalidate Me

Had to go off on someone for calling ME a "waste basket disease" basically saying it's not real and invalidating all of us. 

I was so angry. I feel so out of control of everything and I feel like a captive in my home and this body. 

So that comment really triggered me and I had the worst possible nightmares all night. Not a stone unturned when it came to all of my biggest fears rolling out of my subconscious.  

My elevator is still broken. It's been 2.5 weeks. I made a bunch of complaints last night. I'm scared about retaliation but I'm scared I'll never be able to get downstairs again more.  

I'm a mess.