I don't fit

I never felt like I fit

The black sheep of the family 

The odd ball of my peers

The one know one really understood.

Since I've been ill

It's been worse 

People stare at me in my wheelchair 

Or act uncomfortable when I talk about my struggles 

Even my closest people 

Don't fully get me anymore 

I feel like I'm always going to be a size 10 foot shoved into a size 6 shoe

Winter boots on the beach among flip flops 

Heals among steal toed work shoes on a construction site. 

I'm never going to make sense to people. 

I'm always going to feel isolated and insecure. 

I don't know how to accept this.